life I have and I am the strongest outside, but both hold I think I will explode anytime. Here
show me the way I am, however on the outside must be harder to prove that bullets did not come, for when I need to find a support.
still do not know what you have my dad, but I'm not the same girl from the beginning, or the previous post, all the strength and peace he had, he went to the dump in the blink of an eye, and hope slipping from my hands, I want nothing, I have no desire to eat, I do not see anyone, I suffer from headaches, I'm not allowed to be aa artificial light, I am devastated, but I leave my room again the night 's timetable, my mom is a bunch of emotions at any time can mourn, and there'll be so strong I always giving my support .... sometimes my anger stresses the buttons with me I've realized that anger me a lot during the day, and I must admit with great shame that eh was very insolent to my mother.
Now that my father is hospitalized in another city (we were with him until Thursday, but we had to go back to fix asusntos of our house, everyday things) and my mom this vces in another world to me I've become the man of this home, I manage my home, do bills, make purchases, mantenr clean my home, wash the car. pruning branches, etc. The administrative side imaginans ever .... I did the overnight period units should take, without notice, and a smile for the familai not worry, I have banned this year get sick or fall into depression, peer The other night I tie a tie to school and squeeze with all my strength until I reached the air ... I could not follow I was a coward, I can not leave alone right now my mom ... but I'm not well.
The results of my father will be given this Wednesday, I'm anxious, nervous and angry about the delay ...
soon be my birthday and I did not even want to remember, my perfect gift would be spending the day with my father, if I can travel, we must see and universisdad expenses (tuition and the first monthly payment), accounts, dividend, the hospitalization of my father ... if not we, it was March thinking emplero find a part-time, but that would mean that he could not see my father ..
not know what to do now I'm going to prune a branch ... I'm 48 and weigh
why eh cerdoo eaten as I am more fat and not an effect of reflection, but it's true and not because
I thank you girls who have supported me, really at this point is when I need it, thank you!